The Light (2010)

I walk slowly,
On the iron beams that stretch ahead for miles,
My hands, side by side,
Outstretched for balance,
Almost like an acrobat on a tight rope,
Without his faithful audience.

My surroundings literally dark,
But I see a light at the far corner,
I take a short step down,
As I breathe in.

I take a minor leap forward,
Making sure my feet land on the concrete bar,
I keep repeating this,
As I slowly move onward,
Left, Right, Left,Right.

Im almost there now,
The light slightly bigger and brighter,
I close my eyes,
Thinking not to amend my decision,
But to know why it led to this.


Honestly, there was no one to stop me,
No one who’d notice,
But im no schizophrenic,
And I know why I chose what I chose,
There are things people cant be made to comprehend,
Things they can only know with experience.

But what of the alternative?
Would there be a disparity at all,
Or would it be the same?
And why does this sound so pathetic?
I laughed.
A friend once said,
You have to just take the leap without the look,
Although he clearly did not want that to be related,
To this current situation,
It kept going on in my head.

My canvass is just too crowded with pointless art,
And iv grown weary of trying to make sense of them,
This is it.
Just get rid of the darn canvass.

I open my eyes,
a smile appears on my face,
Its almost time,
The light is just within reach.

A calm ocean breeze entwines me,
Whispering, encouraging me against this,
At least there’s a speck of love in this world.
I hear howls from behind me,
The sound nearly grief-stricken,
I smile again,
I murmur good bye.
Taking one last breath,
The wind giving me the purest it’s got.

Having thought everything I have to confess,
I open my eyes,
“You’ve come this far, why not just face it?”
I look ahead,
The light, much closer now,
So this, is the point of no return!
I spare the last second to read what it says,
“State Property: The Midnight Express”